I was talking to my son the other day. He told me how he felt guilty about Rory’s death. That he should have done more.
Then he expressed that he wanted to be angry at God and blame Him for Rory’s death.
I said, “Do it. Blame Him for a while.”
Heavenly Father didn’t say only come to me when you’re happy.
Only pray to me when you’re in a good place.
Only seek me out when you have all the answers.
He said come to me for comfort.
Pray to me when you’re struggling.
Seek me when you have questions.
I believe our Heavenly Father would love to take that blame and guilt away from my son. God would be happy to hold that for him until he’s able to forgive himself and heal as much as he can.
God’s love is unconditional.
That love will survive the anger we feel when we’re thrown into things we don’t understand. When we’re just barely getting by.
That love will be there when we find happy again.
I think He wants to be there for us through all of it.
Ultimately, my son doesn’t feel like he can blame God.
After all, He’s been where we’re at.
He watched His Son die.