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How is this My Life?

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The Royal Wedding between Meghan and Harry occurred while we were on our cruise. We’d just left Gibraltar, a UK territory, and felt like it was duty to watch.

After the wedding was over the couple was driving down the street, waving.

Here was this American actress becoming a British Duchess.

I thought, “She must be wondering, How is this my life?”

It made me pause. I thought that question so many times over the last seven months. Not in a positive, excited way, like Meghan.

In a sad, how is it possible my daughter is gone, sort of way.

Seven months isn’t long. But it’s also VERY long.

It’s long enough to forget that there was another way to feel about that question. “How is this my life?”

I miss the feeling of being content and happy with life.

Will that ever come back?

But What Now?

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Rory and me at the grand canyon low res

Since Rory passed away, I’ve had this feeling.

I can’t let it be for nothing.

But here’s the thing.

It was appendicitis.

There’s no “Race for the Cure”. It’s something that has a cure.

There are no groups for appendicitis.

There’s nothing to get behind surrounding her condition or death.

Then I thought. This is what I have.

I have my words.

I have my story.

I have her story.

I’m going to take a leap from Facebook posts and open up to others. Those I might not know yet. But we need each other’s stories.

We need each other’s love.